comfortably dumb

maybe just one song?
just one song to say it all.
i'll give you one stanza.

It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping.
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing.

time's running out.
i'm like a walking time-bomb (:

time's running out.
really jittery.
thanks to my really good friends. they've kept me on the ball.
apart from my wonderful classmates, of course there's eme, ade, sher, yp, migoh... and a whole load more.

i think my maths teacher is really cute.
not that i'm gay.
but that he cracks the world's lousiest jokes. trust me.
just received some 4 different emails from him titled..

1. Hi! Everybody!
2. Hi Everybody Again!
3. Hi Everybody Once Again!
4. Hi Everybody Once Again!


So when you hear this autumn song.
Clear your heads and get ready to run.

and i thank you lord, for the trials that come my way.

jc life passes really quickly. was glancing thru some little notes my classmates wrote for me and i felt so touched. we've been through the highs and lows. and soon we'll be through.

on the way back home.
maw and i experienced the attack of the 'giam he' (salted fish in hokkien) once again.
disgusting stench that penetrates your nasal passage.

anyway, it's BAY no more i guess.
it's been too long. too long to believe.

How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow

it's a friggin sunday.

i'm already feeling the monday blues.
always the case. darn.

anyway, just heard mr prime minister deliver his national day rally.
tho i do not agree on some terms. but i guess it's for the best of the overall society.
one thing for sure. i wouldn't want my dear parents to work their ass off till age 65?

saturday was a crazy day.
i see people filing up and down millenia walk, citilink mall and esplanade in the evening.
and i remembered it was some fireworks festival.
but alas.

sudenly i feel so artsy. haha.
thanks to adeline.

Come away with me on a bus.
Come away where they can't tempt us.
With their lies.

woah. it's been quite a week.

i would like to congratulate my good old friends who just survived hellweek in the naval diving unit. you guys are just power-packs!

anyway, one week passes again in just a flash.
i would never forget the times back when i was still a koochi-rat.
how i wished then i would grow up soon.
but now, how i wish i was still a koochi-rat.

was talking to emeline earlier on. haha. trying to build that dream future.
10 butlers and 100 bedrooms?
and she said we'll all age graciously. and join beauty pageants.
but we won't wanna know the places on our bodies which will be saggy!

mmm, oh today. it was the making of the class frenzy.
it goes somewhere along this line...

daniel took huiren's bag.
she then took his and ran a hundred miles.
daniel grabbed his broom and huiren's bag and ran after her.
huiren decides to hide inside the female toilet.
daniel trys to lure her out.
he gives up and barges into the toilet.
huiren nearly threw his wallet into the sanitary bin.
maw plays the drums alone.

and we have a video on that. ask me. i'll show you!

yesterday marian made a diagnosis of daniel.

1. Daniel has split personality. An angel and 2 devils.
2. Daniel speaks to electrical items.

okay. here's some electrical jokes for the amusement of alicia peter and kass.

i wanted to get an electric hair dryer.. but i don't have electric hair!
i wanted an electric orange juicer.. but i can't find any electric oranges!
i wanted an electric pencil sharpener.. but i don't have an electric pencil!
i wanted an electric coffee maker.. but i can't find any electric coffee!
i wanted to buy an electric can opener.. but i dont have any electric cans!

ahhh. there you go. enjoy!



I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come?

well, i'm still a small kid deep within me.
children songs and nursery rhymes never fail to amuse me.
not to mention reading those little thin books, with pictures more than words.
the memories just flow by.
and somehow i wished my childhood days will never end.

earlier on, i was glancing through some nursery rhymes, listening to the familiar tunes.
a reminisce with my childhood days.
and i chanced upon this particular nursery rhyme.
i performed it way back when i was still in kindergartden.
it brought me first prize (:

http://www.nurseryrhymes4u.com/NURSERY_RHYMES/Page_141.html

it's already been 2 days.
and there's no update.
i'll still hang in there.
cos the only thing your eyes haven't told me.
is your name.


Just so you know.
This feeling's taking control of me.

here's the relation.

DOG is a MAN's best friend.
DOG is attracted to BABY DINOSAUR.
MAN is attracted to JAPANESE DINOSAUR.
Both DINOSAURS are not related.

ayee. that's just some thing between the league of dogs.
ask us if you want to know more.

by the way, for that breakthrough in school today. thanks maw!

was on the bus home today.
this old dude with a huge and i mean huge pot belly boarded the bus.
he was so stunningly attractive.
he forgotten to zip up. his bright blue undies popped out to say hi.
not just a flash. i mean POP OUT.
urgh.

guys. check ur flies yeah.
not that full of pride to display ur flags.

All i can taste is champagne.
When it hits the brain like cocaine.

alright. i purposely waited till it's about 12am now before putting up my post.

it's marian wong wong wong's birthday today.
happy birthday to you. and please act like 18 k? (:

feeling very abstract today.

was in the toilet in school earlier today.
they were like promoting some kinda poem thingy.
and this was what i saw...



i mean. you can go read and figure out the original stanzas by yourself. (:

People dancing, people laughing.
A man selling ice-cream.

yet another day where the story and life of a student unfolds.
a constant chapter that keeps ringing.
impromptu tests, piling workload, reality checks...

but as i looked back.
i'm glad i've progressed thus far.
no compromises on my future.

a'levels?... passport to heaven or hell.

alas i'm glad that i'm trying to salvage the wreck i'm in now.
with fingers crossed, prayers to be answered and crazy mugging.
please bring me to where i wanna go.

ahhh. and did i mention that samantha made her own mashed potato salad today?brought it during maths tuition today for ben and i to try.i would say pretty good attempt. bacon was good.mmm... haha.

my dear laptop is slowly crashing in on me.
it's giving me the chance to pre-empt its crash.

this tune has been humming in my head all day long.

It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
(Beautiful Girls - Sean Kingston)

mum said: heyy dan, mind helping me buy 4D?
dan said: sure mum. ( cos he himself wants to buy some numbers)
mum said: here's the money, run along.

at singapore pools..

dan shades all the numbers that mummy wants him to buy.
dan's turn to shade some numbers.
dan contemplates and hesitates.
dan remembered what maw said to him. it's e start. just buy.
dan shades and spent bloody eight bucks on 2 sets of numbers.

@ home with teletext on..

dan flips on pg 884 on teletext.
money down the drain.
dan turns to 4D WED & SAT.
he missed by a digit each for the numbers he bought.
TA MA DE.




i smile at their motto everyday.

thats why i say, most of us have an inverse relationship with singapore pools. the more we feed them money, the more it won't come back to us. that's it. i'm just gonna try sleeping and see if any number floods by.

and it's the final countdown.. music plays on.

2 weeks to prelims.
2 months and 2 weeks to A'levels.

REALITY CHECK DUDE.

You'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do

alas i've once again got this blog up and moving again.
a thousand apologies for the aplenty aplenty of promises to update, broken.
my posts are kinda erratic at this moment but i'll try to make it back in shape again.

i've got loads to say suddenly, but i don't know where to begin. but i will anyway.

canoeing nationals ended with a sore. you guessed it right. i didn't manage to win anything but it was the moments that really made me all emotional. dating back to the times where all of us went through shit together. and i tell you, it was really shit. as time went by, the moaning and groaning soon got to pass. the team was beginning to make its mark. the tremendous effort that everyone put in through every gruelling training was highly commendable.

sometimes, we come to a point where we just really want to breakdown and give everything up. that's when the team comes in. all those words of encouragement, cheers, support till today, they're still ringing in my ears. cj canoeing team 2006-2007 was my pillar of strength and support then, now and always. the sweat, blood, tears that came of us showed the strength and unity of the team.

i wish i could address everyone here but let me do it in general. and to my k2 partner as well.

team, you all have been my greatest pride and joy. to me, nothing in this world can replace the bonds that we fostered. the evening i lost, yes i felt devastated but one thing for sure, i haven't lost you guys. CJ-CANOEING WHOOSH.

nathaniel, you've been the best partner that i could ever asked for. you knew my expectations just like i know of yours. these 2 years of fighting side by side with you has really shown me what true companionship was. we gave our best. the competition seriously don't matter much to me. the training that we endured and pushing and screaming are the moments that i want to remember you for. i'll see you back in the water after our A'levels. promise. lucks with say say say!

ok, now to the recent.

8th august 2007.
our gp teacher left for switzerland. a few of us were down at the airport to see her off, kinda saddened to see her go, but alas it's for the better of her future. so in someway we're glad.
was debating with maw about whether the both of us will tear. the answer was yes. what strong boys huh. haha.
i think the most hilarious thing about that day was that maw and i were so worried that she can't celebrate the moon cake festival. so we bought her 4 mooncakes to eat on the plane. HAH.

11th august 2007.
today's sharlene's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
18 finally.
we'll go drinking soon someday!

and there's just this few verses i would like to leave you with.
it's strength for me.

Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all your heart
And I'll do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

well, what can i say.
life is searching for you.
gee, wonder why things sets in so fast.

the weekends came and go within a flash.
i'm still lost within my tracks.
though the music brings out the mellow.
i miss eating marshmallows. HAHA.

but then again, this is what it contains.
it's the last stretch.
don't screw it up.

class 95 is playing pretty sweet mellow music. love em.
and i found another jazz lover.
jazz music's like chicken soup for the music person.

alright. i'm just outta the kitchen.
had to make jelly to sell for CJC's Alfresco Night tomorrow.
and marian wong wong wong, i made my 2 tubs so stop nagging.


and tomorrow's a triple birthday bash.
alicia peter, maw cherng, my sister.
happy birthday! smile (:


i realised that following a set syllabus proper makes the students very rigid.
there is no more thinking out of the box. just follow what you have.
taking chemistry for example.
just a simple molecular formula as seen below..







simply just meant by-products as carbon dioxide, CO2 and water, H2O
or it could simply be carbonic acid, H2CO3.

however, some would beg to differ.
looking for parent chains and subsequent side-chains.
coming up with names like methoxy, hydroxy, methone?


well, perhaps it's not the syllabus.
it's just that we need to view things from different angles.
chemistry showed me the light. damn.


But girl you gotta understand the modern man must hustle!

right now, i'm feeling really drained.
sheeesh. i say that almost everyday.

sometimes when life puts you down.
hang in there.

sometimes i cry so hard from pleading.
so sick and tired of all the needless beating.
but baby when they knock you.
down and out.
it's where you outta stay!

all i wanna do now is to get my two disciplines right.
A'Levels and A'Div Nationals

there's no way am i gonna compromise on either one.
it's starting to get fierce. really fierce.
i'm not giving in.


21st march 2007.

alright alright to all you sweet people there. i'm back at blogging again.

kinda having a headache at the moment so i shall keep things short and sweet.
so i'll update you on what i have in mind now.

8 months ain't gonna hang in there long.
that's as much time as we have to the a'levels.
i'm worried. i'm a year behind time for my subjects. at least i think.
gee. i'll catch up.
i've got what i want in mind. remind me.

it's 4 o'clock in the morning and it's starting to get light.
now i'm right where i wanna be,
losing track of time.
but i wish that it was still last night.

my classmates call me the emo-kid. and now i know the reason why.
HAHA.


it's gotten late and now i want to be alone
all of our friends were here, they all have gone home
and here i sit on the front porch watching the drunks stumble forth into the night.


19th March 2007