comfortably dumb

He was better to me than all my hopes;
He was better than all my fears;
He made a bridge of my broken works,
And a rainbow of my tears.
The stormy waves that marked my ocean path,
Did carry my Lord on their crest;
When I dwell on the days of my wilderness march
I can lean on His love for the rest.

He emptied my hands of my treasured store,
and his covenant love revealed,
There was not a wound in my aching heart,
The balm of his breath has not healed.
Oh, tender and true was His discipline sore,
In wisdom, that taught and tried,
Till the soul that He sought was trusting in Him,
And nothing on earth beside.

He guided my paths that I could not see,
By ways that I have not known;
The crooked was straight, and the rough was plain
As I followed the Lord alone.
I praise him still for the pleasant palms,
And the desert streams by the way,
For the glowing pillar of flame by night,
And the sheltering cloud by day.

Never a time on the dreariest day,
But some promise of love endears;
I read from the the past, that my future will be
Far better than all my fears.

Like the golden har, of the wilderness bread,
Stored up with the blossoming rod,
All safe in the ark, with the law of the Lord,
Is the covenant care of my God.

-Streams in the Desert-


Sometimes, we fear for the worst, we shun the uncoming. But those who have fears in their hearts like me, for once He closes a window, He'll open the door.

26th September 2006.

I'm having sleepless nights. All the worrying and caffeine.

It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing

Some kind of therapy
Is all I need
Please believe me
Some instant remedy
That can cure me completely

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.

Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?

Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to.

Had tuition early this morning.
Was going through my Inequalities notes and i came upon what Huiren and Samantha wrote during lecture.
It goes like this...

"Dear God, If you can't make me hot, make my friends ugly!"

I'm mugging. People and Books.

I'm rushing through my topics now.
See my haggard face, it's worn out.
I really need to get pass my promos. Pray for me.
I'm worn out already, I'm beat.

12th September 2006.

Heyy, I'm back for another rendition of Daniel's Journal. Didn't really revamped it much, but added an archive so you could browse through the past entries. The stinking thing about blog is that you lose the thrill after some time. This time, I'll try to keep it going. Notice the word is 'try' dammit.

Some of Life Lines that we could consider. Especially you people my beloved canoeists.

Anger is an Energy: Ranting can be postitive, but the more often you blow up, the less effective it becomes. As a team member, the threat of action can be more effective than the action itself. I still put my foot through dressing room doors occasionally. Old habits die hard.

The Weakest Link: You're only as strong as your weakest lik. Get the most out of that person by finding out what they respond to best.

A Good Boss Makes You feel Invincible: Bobby Robson knew how to manipulate players for the good. We'd have run through brick walls for him.

Find Your Own Motivation: Before big games, Stuart Pearce used to listen to the Sex Pistols. I'd listen to self help or autogenic tapes. We're all different. The tapes taught me that my strength and talents was a big tank with my fingers and toes acting as taps to drain away tension. Another tap in my stomach controlled my adrenalin. I'd row out to the race course feeling a champion.

Never Think You've Made It: Never stop striving to better yourself.

Hard Work Wins Games: The team that wants it more will normally come out on top. There are exceptions, but without drive you'll win nothing.

Hit the Mountain: You can escape into your own world and push yourself as hard as you want. Plus I find I can take my anger out on the waters and hills and they never complain.

And like what Justin said.

When the exams are finished,
I'll be just as finished as it.

I'm gonna pick up that damn phone and head straight for the army.

It's gotten late and now i want to be alone. All of our friends were here, they all have gone home. And here i sit on the front porch watching the drunks stumble forth into the night. "You gave me a heart attack; i did not see you there. I thought you had disappeared so early away from here." And this is the chance I never got to make a move. But we just talk about the people we've met in the last 5 years. And will remember them in ten more? I let you bum a smoke, you quit this winter past. I've tried twice before but like this, it just will not last.

It's bloody late into the night and I begin to feel tensions arising between me and my thick stack of notes. Maximising my messenger, I start to count the number of mad muggers accompanying me through the night. And i realised something, majority of them are watching the world cup. WORLD CUP is nowhere near ±b÷a(x-h)+k. Unless that spells world cup to you, I'll make you thine. By the way, to those trying to figure out this equation, it's to find the asymptotes in a hyperbola. If you hate maths, don't bother looking.

And for the sake of dudes who come and say when is my blog updated. I'll write the date for you.

ahhh, and jun chyi asked me..

"What's a man's best friend?"

i simply replied..

"WOMAN"

as i always say, when the limelight finally shines, you better be ready to dance like a frantic monkey or they will just point that bad boy at someone who has done their homework in a more timely and conscientious manner. so i would like to take this opportunity to point myself out. pointing yourself out is the quickest and most efficient way to up the wattage of limelights. if you wait for other people to point you out, you may find that you are generally unpointable and may very well be a no one in particular, and most no one in particulars end up bemoaning their fates to other no on one in particulars, in less than desirable gathering places like coin laundromats and church basements. i, however, am well versed on the subject of me and can speak at length about it with many words and much confidence. unlike a lot of people who talk at length about themselves, i am a very interesting topic. if people think i am full of myself, it's only because i can't bear to throw any of me away. it's taken a long time to gather it all up, and i have no outside of me luggage space, unless you count that collapsable vinyl shoe storage unit my grandma bought for me but i have no idea where it is. i hope you enjoy me, for i know i do at times. i may sound selfish but remember... the only difference between selfish and selfless is several letters.

kill me won't ya.

it's 11.22pm on a monday night and i'm slogging away doing my GP esasy.

music maketh my soul.
therapeutical charms.
chill out paris.
northern lights.
budha lounge bar.

morning run tmr @ 6.45am.
i'm getting very worn out.

i'll be fine.
worry not.
the only easy day was yesterday.

-daniel

and i'm feeling quite emotional at the moment.
well, as justin, kenneth and i agreed on the word, it should be bittersweet.

it seems like just yesterday when we were getting all ready for our dragon boating trip. and i remembered the first time i spoke to justin was when he offered me a mentos sweet. and then came along my retard bestie kenneth. both of them made these 2 months the best-est days of my life. thanks my men! then all the orientation came to an end with finale night. remember doing the mass dance? kenneth was well in luck! and that was how we formed the well renowned -men's talk- exclusive club membership.

lesson's began. and during breaks i'll always remember that we the three retards will always sit at least 2 tables away from the class. well 1T01, it's not that we hate the class or something, in fact we love all you sweet people! It's just that we're into this 'solitude', artsy people you may call it. (: the skipping of lectures with justin and kenneth at the grand stand, disturbing bobby (gregory), going home with steffie, the rendezvous issue, MEN'S TALK (when the members began increasing) .. etc are all memories that are deeply etched in my heart.

and who says that big guys don't cry. the day when we were viewing the class video, my tears were welling up. i felt this scrunching of my heart inside, i really can't bear to leave you guys.

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
to feel the way we do today
and than if you can't remember.....

Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me for sure
that's what friends are for
In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for.

well in this edition of my blog, i wanna make a shoutout to certain people who made my life so beautiful. filling it up with colours of the horizon. making it so fresh and new.

justin - it was you. you brought this special element in my life called 'companionship'. the many things we've done is just a portion of what's to happen. you gave my life a special touch. miss you my man.
kenneth - you're my role model. mr gentleman is all yours to keep. you're always there encapsulating my life with all your funny prophesies. bringing out the 'oomph' in us is what you do best. i'll miss you dude.
steff - the person who got a place in my life. the scent of magic, the beauty that's been. you know what's going within me, you know what i'm going through. you're special to me and always will be. you're being missed.
gillian - my very best 'man' friend. the one girl i admire so much for having being so brave. the many things we shared, i'll remember them. i'll pray for you, worry not. i still think ronald is better.
corina - she's my 'ang moh' bestie. not because she's caucasian but because of her golden blond hair. the times you ask me to sit next to you in the front row when gill and ali's not there. how you nudge me when i'm falling asleep.
alicia - she's "ali" to me. well another person whom i get to dwell with. she's like my monger, filling up the juicy news in our diaries. i'll always remember that laughter of yours.
kass - my personal baker. always asking for chewy chocolate cookies from her. she gives good massages for our aching backs. someone i got to know on the last few days school, a treasured friendship it will be.
douglas - he was the first guy i talked to in 1To1. we were strolling through far east on the first day we met with bobby. and i remember how we tried matchmaking bobby with the girls in school. dougie, remember your 3 dream girls?
gregory - ok, from now on it's - no suan "bobby" day - a religious guy, a illogical guy but a very nice one to be with. i'll always remembered that he said "if you rob the bank and hear the alarm go off, put on your ear plugs so you hear nothing" and "we should all have a life vest at home cos south pole's melting and we'll all drown" his sermons i guess.
dinah, shalini, turaiya - these 3 ladies seats right in front of us. gorgeous they may be, cool people i say.
aud tsen - i don't see you in class often but you're a really great person to work with. our econs project won't be a hit if you didn't provide such good information. thanks lady.
shiyi, aud tan, aud lim - another group of 3. always laughing around in their own world. but that's good. at least the chilly air is warmed up and we have a nice happy environment.
theodora - quiet she may seem but she's one power mama. play soccer with her and you'll know why. she's fierce with the ball.
serena - 'wahhhh' taiwan sausages! alright, i'll promise not to disturb you anymore! (:
kerryn - the singer in class. remember when i misread a french title and it went like this "caress me" . darn it was soooo way out of the song.
michelle - you leave a deep impression on me. i remember how you said that with my strong arms, it was so vigorous. RA it may seem but michelle that's sooo HOT. (:

these are the beautiful people in my life. i want to end it with this verse. "don't take too long to say i love you to, the ones you love cos time has the habit of slipping away" yes time has slipped away so fast, all i want to say is that i remember all you people. i love you guys till the end of my days.

and now, the young man's dreams was almost seem so plain.

you know, daniel's THE MAN.
he's a hunk , all girls out there watch it.
though he likes to INSULT + IRRITATE by coming up with nicknames for me =D

i never thought i would become friends with you when i first got into 1t01.
realllly haha
but look where we are now , the THREE retarded musketeers.
1.daniel- the HUNKY idiot -.-
2.kenneth- the permanently charred one
3.justin- the big neh neh small guai lan t -shirt boy

haha sorry bobby and douglas , i missed you out -.-

anyway,i never thought my name could be morphed into variations !
till daniel came along ,
and up came
1. FING PIAK
2.FANG FING FONG
3.MR. S
4. er , enlighten me daniel cause you seem to have too many names for me =)

i'll remember southern fried chicken with you guys,
i'll remember nasty foods with you guys,
i'll remember the four beauties with you guys HAHA ,
i'll remember stoning at the grandstand with you guys,
i'll remember fighting with you guys,
i'll remember carrying you guys,
i'll remember our toilet trips ,
i'll remember being in 1t01 with you both

















kenneth, fing piak